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(Back in being Emily)

Watching Emily's face change, Sean slowly added, "But maybe I can change the result."

She felt a little relieved, "Did you just frighten me on purpose?"

His lips angled slightly in a cynical smile, "Did I? But, you should be confident in me; after all, it was I who saved your baby."

"Yes." Distracted by the thought of her lost child, she wondered whether Sean could have saved him with his superior medical skills, had she been in D country at the time of his birth.

Seeing her pallid distress, Sean became serious, looking at her with a clinical eye, "What's the matter?"

She simply shook her head and flashed a wan smile, trying to assure him, "Nothing."

Unconsciously, Sean wrinkled his eyebrows. Suddenly he grasped Emily's hand to feel the pulse. Minutes later, his face sank and he asked, "Did you give birth to a second child? And where is the child?"

Closing her eyes, she tried to hide her pain, but her tightly pursed lips betrayed her, "The child died at birth."

"What?" Pain made Sean's pupils contract, and he couldn't control his anger, "Why didn't you tell me that you were with child? If you had told me, the child would not have died!"

"I'm sorry, but I didn't know that such a tragedy was going to happen."

"The child belonged to Jacob, didn't it? Does he have anything to do with the child's death?"

"No! Don't say that!" Emily interrupted him, quietly wiping her teary eyes, "The child was unlucky. It must be fate."

Sean sneered and turned to Jacob. "Am I wrong? He tried to kill your first child. It's not strange that he killed your second child. Amnesia cannot erase all his mistakes or his character!"

"What do you mean?" Jacob, who had quietly kept his temper for quite some time, suddenly jumped to his feet, his eyes burning scarlet as he slowly asked, "Why would I kill my own child?"

"You don't believe that you are capable of it?" Unafraid, Sean looked him straight in the eye, "I don't know if you've really become an amnesiac or not, but maybe it's all a ploy to get forgiveness from Cloris."

"Stop! Stop! Please stop, Sean!" Even perceptive, Emily could feel the change in Jacob's breathing and knew the rage that dwelt under the surface, so she begged Sean, "Let bygones be bygones. There isn't any sense in dwelling on the past and bitter events."

Jacob stared at Emily quietly, cut to the quick by her words which, though seeking to make peace, did not deny Sean's accusations.

So, he really had done things that hurt her in the past...

He remembered none of it, but the deeds remained, and he was the only one who had forgotten them.

It was unfair to Emily.

"I want to recover all my memories." He lowered his voice, with a myriad of emotions waring inside him.

Confused, Emily stared at him, suddenly wondering if it was wise to have brought him to D country for the purpose of regaining his memories.

If the recovery brought him pain, then she would rather that he never regained any memories!

But Jacob was determined to, and Emily could not dissuade him.

Sean burst out in angry laughter, "Okay, I'll help you to remember everything. You won't miss a single detail, and you will live the rest of your life regretting it. Sometimes, ignorance is bliss."

Jacob's lips pressed into a resolute line for a while and he firmly said, "It's what I want. I hope you can do it."

The things he did, the people he loved, the good, the bad, the dark... He would accept everything in his memories.

He was willing to live the rest of his life in pain and regret, because that was his punishment.

Sean snorted coldly and said nothing more.

Before Emily could make another attempt to convince them differently, Sean left in an angry huff.

Only two people now remained in the hall, Emily and Jacob. They looked at each other with mixed emotions.

Finally, Emily could not help but embrace Jacob. She advised sadly, "Jacob, in fact... In fact, without those memories, we can also have a very good life. Why fix what isn't broken?"

He gently rubbed her back with his large calloused hand, but there was a firmness, an immovable decision in his eyes, "I shall accept all that is mine to bear."

"If I really hurt you, then I should be punished, and in remembering, I shall."

Not knowing what to say, she just quietly leaned against his chest. It was a dilemma for her whether Jacob's memories should be restored.

She wished then that there were a way for him to regain only the good memories, and that the bad memories could somehow be edited out and deleted.

Though she could try to dissuade him further, she could not interfere with his choice for she respected his decision. Whatever happened, she would be there to support him.

"Okay, I'm on your side."

"Thank you, Emily." Jacob held her tightly. He found it difficult to believe that he had hurt her in the past, but Sean said that he had, and Emily had not denied this. How he wished that he could go back to that past and kill the past Jacob several times over!

He wanted to recover his memory. He wanted to remember what he had done and avoid hurting her again in the same way!

Sean had agreed to help Jacob restore his memory, though he did so with enmity in his heart. He had promised Emily to help, so he was quickly forming a devious plan.

Half-jokingly, he asked Emily, "Aren't you afraid I'll do something to kill him?"

She was stunned and then shook her head, "You won't."

He asked curiously, "What makes you think that I wouldn't? You know, he is the man I hate most. He robbed me of my sister and hurt her."

Subconsciously, Emily had avoided Sean's love, regarding his affections as only a brother-sister bond, "Because I believe in you and you are very kind to me. If Jacob died, then I would not continue on living alone. And you are certainly the one who would most wish that I live well and happy."

After listening to her words with a deadpan face, Sean suddenly smiled as complicated emotions flashed in his eyes, "Oh, you know me so well, Cloris. What should I do with you?"

Taking a deep breath she hesitated for a long time before answering, "Sean, I will always cherish you as my brother, but I am not really Cloris. I am Emily. I have never forgotten my identity in these years, and I hope you will never call me Cloris again, okay?"

"So, you want to go back to being Emily, for that man, and abandon being Cloris?" His eyes were filled with gloom and, doing his best to suppress something uncontrollable from bursting forth. He ached inside.


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