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       πŸ–€{Getting Into His Dark World}πŸ–€

         πŸ¦‹ EPISODE 79πŸ¦‹{The Truth About Him.}







    I stare at the phone before turning my attention back to Ryan who smiles at me when he sees who is calling before standing up.

"I'm going to leave you to answer the call. I'll be outside with Kate."

He says and I nod and watch as he leaves the room while I sigh, taking my gaze back to the phone and letting out a breath.

I stare at the name for some minutes before swiping towards the receivers end and I glue the phone to my ear.


He calls my name in that one way that only him do the best and I try to control myself as I shake my head and try to concentrate.

I'm not going to get deceived once again in his never ending lies.

I promise myself.


I mutter, when it seems like he isn't going to say anything else. 

"Oh God. It's really you. I thought that something happened to you when you weren't speaking up. We need to talk Lyla."

He says and I roll my eyes even though he can't see me right now.

"We are speaking right now to me .."

I mutter and I hear him sigh at the other end.

"I know that you're angry with me Lyla and I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for keeping that away from you. "

He says and I let out a sigh once again.


I sat and there's silence at the other end.

"I know that you're angry at me and you don't have to forgive me because I know that I don't deserve your forgiveness either. The things that I have done to you and how I had hurt you repeatedly over and over again... I understand that you don't want to forgive me and I don't want you to either."

He says and I nod eveh though he can't see me.

"I just wanted to make sure that you're alright."

He says once again and I should be happy that he isn't trying to get back into my life but somehow I feel sad for that.

Even after everything that had happened, I still want him here and I hate myself so much for that.

Why do I always have to want him so much?

Why do I have to love him so much. It frustrates me as much as it makes me happy.

"Okay. I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me."

"I'm glad to hear that but can I know where you are. I know that I don't have any right to know that abd you don't owe me anything but I just want to know where you are."

How should I tell him this?

And suddenly, I feel like I've done something bad.

Oh God! Not this again.

"I'm at..."

I stop and breathes out, deciding that he took this upon himself and I wouldn't be staying here right now and in Ryan's shirt if he hasn't been so fucked up.

"At Ryan's place."

And there's silence at the other end.

   TBC ♥️.


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