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      EPISODE 43. {Letting Go Of Him.}


         "Are you alright? Oh you have no idea how glad I am to see you right now. After what happened to you and you disappeared just like that,I have been worried sick and then you called yesterday but something felt off cause you weren't going to talk to me are you alright now?"

He raises his brows at me with a smile plaster across his lips and it hurts me so fucking much that I would have to let go of him like this.

Why couldn't I keep this thing on? Why couldn't I continue loving him just like I have always do? Why do I have to go out of my way and fall for someone that won't never want me the way I want.

Someone that would never love me the way I want but only want my body and only wants it for fun.

Why does it have to be Alexander of all people?why couldn't it be Ryan?

The heart can really be funny sometimes. Falling for someone that would never fall in love with me.

"Something is wrong. Why, what happened?"

He reaches out to touch me then stop immediately as if he's just realizing something and I breathe in,knowing that this is the moment.

He has found out already. About what I have been trying to find a way to tell him.

I knew that he would find out. He always do,one way or the other. He always knows what's going on.

"Who was it?"

He asks and he doesn't have to say those words twice before I know what he's talking about.

"My boss at work. "

I reply,breathing out gently and he sighs before nodding his head as if I had just pierce him in his heart and I know that I had just did.

I know that he loves me and he woulddo anything for me and I love him.

Oh I do love Ryan so much. The feelings just aren't there anymore after what had happened and that's exactly what I'm sorry for.

"Do you want..."

His voice cracks and he clears his throat,bending his head before continuing.

"Do you want to be with him... Wait! That was where you were last night when you called right? You were with him?"

What's the whole essence of lying if I'm going to let go of him now. What's the whole point?

"I was. It was. "

Silence. Uncomfortable silence and I know that I just have hurt him really much for him not to have said anything.

No matter what happens,he's always saying something and just right now. I wish that he would.

Get angry at me. Yell at me. Tell me to leave him the fuck alone. Tell me to get the hell out of here. Anything would have been better that the deaf silent treatment that he's giving me right now.

"I understand. "

"I'm sorry Ryan. I didn't mean for it to happen. I promise you that it just happened. I didn't even realize what I was doing until I realize that something is happening to me. I'm very sorry Ryan, I didn't mean to hurt you. You know that I would never hurt you."

I breathe out and he nods.

"I get it Lyla. Seriously I do get it but it just hurts. I have always been trying to make sure that I don't lose you. Trying in every way that I could but there's a popular saying that if it isn't meant to be then it isn't meant to be.. I guess we just aren't meant to be but I wish it didn't had to end this way."

He chuckles slightly,one that hurts him and I nod before standing up and staring down at my feet like it's the most interesting thing to do.

"Goodbye Lyla.."

He says and I smile,nodding my head before walking out of the room.

   TBC ♥️


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