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      🖤{My Boss Demands}🖤

   EPISODE 32. {Wrong Feels So Right.}




     I shake my head as I gulp down the entire water before pouring myself another and gulping it down all at once again. God! I can't believe myself! I'm so fucking dumb! I can't believe I allowed that to happen. 

Kissing my boss is one thing that's wrong and then cheating on my boyfriend why has been nothing but loyal to me is another thing entirely and I hate myself so much for it. 

I hate the fact that I have to feel so much attracted to him, I hate the fact that he lights up something in me with one single touch even though it's so wrong.

I hate the fact that everything with him feels so right even though everything is so wrong. I hate him for making me this way. For making my body react to his every touch. 
I hate him for trapping me like this and making me feel this goddamned way about him, I hate him so much for making everything so hard for me. 

I hate myself to cheating on Ryan and I hate myself for wanting more. So much more even though everything that happened is wrong. It isn't right and it should never be done. It should never have happened and I hate myself for wishing it could happen once again and I hate myself for liking it. 

This is the time when I need my friend, for them to talk some sense into it but now, I'm without my phone thanks to Sebastian and there's no way in hell that I'm going back inside that room to get his phone. 

God! I can't even face him right now, I don't have the courage to face him right now. I don't want to look at him. I don't want to be anywhere near him cause I know that each moment I spend with him. Each single second I spend with him, it leads to something even more wrong. 

"Lyla... "
He says behind me, calling my name in such a way that makes my stomach tightens even more and I turn to look at him with my heart beating so fast against my chest. 
He takes another step towards me and I move away from him immediately. 

"Please don't. Don't Alexander, I can't. I don't want to. "
I shake my head continuously, holding my hand in the space between us as if that's going to stop him. 

He rolls his eyes before taking another step towards me despite my warning and I breathe out. 
I knew he wasn't going to listen. 

"Why are you punishing yourself Lyla? I know you want this so why are you denying it so much? "

"You are my boss and I shouldn't be doing anything sexual with my boss. I'm your employee and nothing should be happening between us except professional work. "
I mutter, my chest heaving up and down and he chuckles before shaking his head. 

"I told you, didn't I? I don't really care about that. I want you and I always make sure I get whatever I want. "
He smirks and I shake my head once again. 

"I have a boyfriend. "

"Well, I really don't care about that either. "

"Well, I do care! "
I scream, shaking my head once again. "I do care whether I cheat on my boyfriend or I do not because I love him! "

"Fine, then tell me one thing. If you tell me right now that you don't want this. That you don't like this, if you look into my eyes and tell me that you don't want it then I'm going to forget about everything that happened in the past minutes."

"Tell me Lyla! "


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